Plain Rotten Luck

Its been a while since i've felt this down and depressed for 2 days. I know it might be hard for you to understand why i feel such and even after my explanation some might not find understand my feelings and emotions. I shall not harbour any ill-feelings to those of you who will feel that way. This is the person i am and will always be that person. So this is how my really crappy and sucky 48 hours of just pure bad luck started



I started having really bad cramps the whole day, YES it was "the" time of the month...somehow during that particular time, our hormones just goes haywire, so i was pretty moody itself. After a long (9-5pm) day of classes..i come back to my place to rest a bit, have my shower and go for the basketball match. Hardly 10 mins me being there,it starts raining...yes i had my umbrella with me..but this "particular" friend of mine decided to take it from me and insisted i do "crazy" stuff once in a while,..and by "crazy" he meant walk in the rain. SO i gave him my handphone to keep in his pocket as i didnt want my phone to get wet. He walked me back to my apartment and while walking pass the pool..i just gave him a nudge. For those of you who know me well..you would know that im not really a STRONG person!! Seriously!!! and of all freaking days, when i gave him that slight nudge..he moved..slipped and fell into the pool. For a moment, i totally forgot that he had my handphone with him. to make matters worse he had his phone, his wallet and another friend's wallet. ..I felt SOOOOOOOOOO bad!!.. i couldnt stop beating myself up for it...It something i just couldnt stop thinking about and blaming myself. How could i have forgotten about my phone? why did i even nudge him? So many things just kept running through my head..and no matter how hard i tried to remove that scene..it just kept playing and replaying in my head!!!!





Thankfully my friend Izzi was nice enough to spare me an extra phone and my sim was working....However, i had no contacts on my sim. The reason was cause all my contact numbers were saved on my phone. Ive had my phone for 2 years....you can imagine the amount of numbers i lost and i dont know how long its going to take me to get back all those number...*long sigh*...Besides that, im really attached to my phone so losing it means a lot to me..So, last night was a sleepless night for me...



Moving on to today, i still couldnt really get over the incident with my phone..The particular "friend" of mine who lost his phone,asked me to follow him to mid valley with him to get our phones fixed. Honestly i really didnt want to go..but i felt bad because i AM to be blamed for what had happened anyways... Once we got our things settled at mid valley, he had to go meet his friends for dinner, and there i was stuck at mid valley alone...with noone to call because i had NOOO contact number!!.. *long sigh again!!*....I decided to spend my time by treating myself to starbucks and buying myself a new pencilbox (something i needed)...it was purple in colour!..i did feel bit better after that!....After walking around i wanted to go back to vista and caught a cab.



The cab ride back to vista cost rm15!...i was short on Rm 1, luckily a couple of seniors i knew were outside vista, i borrowed 1 buck from them and paid the taxi driver. I got back to my apartment to realise i had left my plastic bag which contained the pencil case i bought in the cab....ARGH!!!!.. i had the worse feeling at that moment...i couldnt help but really just have a breakdown... I feel that i was extra sensitive thanks to my damn hormones. The only way i release all that frustration is by letting my "tears" run free...i cant really scream, i was angry and it was just a mixture of emotions..


One good thing was that i had friends who tried cheering me up and just telling me that things will be better. At first it is hard to take it in because your mind isnt thinking clearly, but a good warm shower and sleep really does help!!......So i decided to publish this post as a mean of letting it out, and just not thinking about it ever again. Today was a better day then yesterday and i hope that tomorrow it will be even better. ....


XOXO